Remembering Me

For a long time. I though I had been lost.

Alone in the darkness. Shouting to be rescued. Reaching out to people,

for someone to take my hand and pull me to safety

From so many I have tried to gain pieces of myself, to make me whole.

Not anymore,

I have stopped.

As if something turned on the light

I Suddenly stopped shouting, i stopped crying.

I opened my eyes

and I stopped blaming

I thought I have always been afraid of the darkness.

But tonight I rememered

I have not

I remember when I was younger I took long walks at night.

Darkness around me and stars shining upon me.

I wasn't afraid back then.

Was I whole back then ?

I'm sure I was not, but i had something that i seem to have lost along the years.

I had my soul and heart.

Today, while looking at the dark trees

feeling the humid air all around me,

I remembered.

A part of me, that was shouting alone, came to me

smiling like an angel.

I am not afraid anymore;

Grandma, im not afraid anymore.

I have found my way.

For there's always a path

even in the darkness.

I guess I have grown a little.

You would be so proud.

I love you with all my heart.