Miss Luna

Listening to: Olavi Uusivirta - Tuu mun vaimoksein Mood: sad but hopeful Cups of coffee: 4 26th day my grandmother was taken to hospital due to a bad heart condition. It had only been a month since she came back home from the hospital and now her fears came true and she had to go back once more. And I haven't been able to go see her because I have quite a bad cough. She's too fragile... She has tiny green eyes and short silver grey hair. This morning I received the worst kind of wake up call. My dad had been taken to hospital due to a bad heart condition. My dad has never been sick. He never complains about anything and now I was watching him in brown hospital clothing, listening to his hoarse voice and trying not to cry. He has the bluest eyes and darkest, curliest hair. This evening all my most precious people gathered together and we all sat at my mother's tiny kitchen drinking coffee, each of us more tired than the other one. Each of us desperately needing sleep. Two of...

I've been running running away for so long I don't recognize my reflection in a mirror I look and look but can't see the similarities this shell of human surviving from day to another I'm watching her from the mirror But I can't see~ she is me. And then I realize, slowly as days have passed me by it was me, who got trapped inside~ Still waiting the day to come when the shell of mine switches places with me returning to be my reflection once more.

Headache, knocking from inside heart full of unsolved matters eyes wet from all the shed tears: Cannot escape feelings, hide from pain run away from the person in mirror. I am the result of my actions creation of thoughts the vain Ikaros.

Mood: Amused ( By Charlaine Harris's Club Dead ) Listening to: Hallelujah ( By Justin Timberlake, Leonard Cohen) I thought my next post would be something about white lies or dreams. My lack of desire to start writing just took me always somewhere else when it was a good time to start. And right now I have no intention at all to write about either of them.. Two days ago my niece had her spring festival and that was her last at elementary school. There were a lot of songs performed mostly by the first graders and the leaving sixth greaders. One of those songs were Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen. It seemed like an act of fate. That's one of my and my sister's favorite songs. She loves when I sing it to her time to time and it is also the song I sung on my audition. This has made me think alot about fate or do things happen just by accident. I have found through out the passed years that every bad and good thing has had some meaning later on in my life. Let it be the years of...