I just hate that I love you

I have been careful 
not to let anyone close
Build solid walls
around my heart
Kept my mind focused
not letting my feelings get the best of me
So,
 why on Earth did you enter my life ?

 Telling me
how you want to get closer
Have me around
when you come home from work
Cuddle me
through the dark nights
Your beautiful words
were strong enough
to cut down my wall
and mess my head

 I hate that I love you
Even we turned out to be
just friends
I still
want you
I still
think of you
I still
wait to hear from you

 Those words you whispered to me
Those looks you exchanged with me
Those acts of love you gave me
Take them back

 Erase these feelings
give back the brigs you took
so I can start rebuilding
Carefully leave you behind 
shouting words of affection
which I won't hear anymore

 Turn back the time
don't approach me
leave me be
Because,
I hate that I
want you
I hate that I
think of you
I hate that I
wait to hear from you

 But still
I don't hate you

 I just hate that I love you

Comments

  1. Kelvin21 June 2013 at 02:04

    Composed.In the Strict sense of literal conquest, sublimed within wits and love. <3

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