Miss Luna

One beautiful day you will say you love me It was a chilly winter day when I first saw your kind smile as you passed me by. And I don't know why but that image came to stay in my mind for days to come Life continued as ever time moved forward and yet I I stood still like a mountain unable to move from my roots. Then came spring and like magic you came back into my life like a beautiful wind As you passed me by You looked at me You smiled at me You spoke to me You are the one The one for me now and forever yet I couldn't say a word. I stood still like a mountain unable to move from my roots As surely as seasons change you went away Left me standing all alone You will come back to me one day yet again And on that day I want you to know the next time you pass me by... That one beautiful day I will answer and you, You will say you love me

TZBO - Farewell ( a short song for a band in the Episode-game) You are an angel Pure innocent angel But I am a demon, done bad things Lived a live that shall not see the light You are so beautiful, innocent soul When you smile the whole world becomes colorful When you dance my eyes cannot see but you You look at me and see right through my facade To you I cannot lie and I do not even wish to for you make me want to be a better man I want to hold you in my arms Run my fingers through your hair and whisper the words of love to your ear I want to hold your hands in mine lean my forehead against yours kiss you softly Again and again But when I see your smile I cannot I cannot make you mine I cannot hold you I cannot kiss you You are so pure and beautiful I do not want to destroy you For you are an angel and I am a demon I would devour your innocence So farewell Farewell my perfection

My sister,  the keeper of my soul. The purple color that draws me back from the darkness. It is not cold anymore. It does not hurt anymore because you reached your hand and I grabbed it I am still holding it I will never let go  for you are the reason I am still here. You have saved me time and time again Others have given me candles to see in the endless darkness The flame will eventually die But you,  you have stayed with me. You are here Holding my hand You are my light. We walk side by side Steadily One step at a time One road at a time One world at a time There is no horror,  no fear The is nothing. You are my mind You are my voice You are my heart You are my soul I am me and without you I am no-one. I am nothing I am the darkness. So never let go. Never let go of my hand. Hold it tightly through madness and sorrow And One day,  when you die I shall fall Fall without you Through time Through Universe Through not...

For years you have tried to overpower me Trying to suck my life force Fill my head with lies and despair But time after time I stand up again I collect the pieces of my self confidence and glue them back together It will last until the next battle Again you try Take me down with your sword of glory but my shields shall not break Today I will win! I shall have the glory I shall have the smile of victory Until the next time we will meet again on the battlefield of life and death

Oh I miss you why did I have to loose you I had so many things I wanted you to know Why did you have to go? I remember how you made me smile how we held hands and cried Baby you are mine forever I still don't understand how something so grand could stop so fast My darling, sweetheart send from up above you are my heart the King of my deck of cards Yes you made me cry but our love survived fights we had none of that really matters no more I miss the days we stayed up all night talking of nonsense and life how happy and sad Now all I have left are memories so bitter and sweet Oh baby, why did He have to take you back home I still love you so Dear God, Is he okay? Is he sitting on a cloud smiling like always Can you tell him that I, Oh, I will love him for the rest of my life I'm looking at you pictures how you used to smile And I'm trying to understand but sometimes I'm loosing my mind Will this sadness ever heal ? It is all so ...

Shall I cry, Shall I die or shall I sing a lullaby Will I fall, will I hopelessly call or will I close this door  Do I know, do I go or do I decide are you friend or foe Am I right or wrong Am I already gone or am I allowing this to continue far too long Now.. It is time to stop it is time to make you drop it is time let you fuck this up For darling.. You shall cry, you shall die while I sing your last lullaby

This eternal game of emotions has started again we have taken out the game board and rolled the dice One, tow, three steps we walk side by side until we come to the crossroad and choose different paths There are no written rules we make them as we go Who shall be the winner, which one runs faster and crosses the finish line No matter is it you or me this game of relationship seems never to be over For we start again and again until everything falls apart

I am a secret  you dare not tell I am a whisper  you cannot catch I am a spirit you shall not tame I am  A reborn woman passion within me I am an entity silver running through my veins I am a creature howling together with wolves I am a soul shedding tears to the stars I am The Daughter of Moon. I am LUNA

You must know I never meant to feel this way, every cell in my body is longing you to stay. But I cannot show you my heart's true notes, 'Cause we started walking different roads. I know I said bad things and cannot take them back, but I said them to protect you, you must know that. I never meant to break you, wish you know that is true. Now everything we had is found and lost, and it all came with a high cost. Baby please stay. I'm shouting all alone since what we had is gone. And like snow falls from the sky Am watching life passing us by. So i'm asking you one more time, baby, please, be only mine I'm returning home facing the empty air, I'm buzzing around trying not to care. My phone is on the table quieter than ever, I'm trying to convince myself it is for the better. You have not called, this feeling is unbearable, but from your point of view, I guess, it's understandable. For our words said were so harsh and fast, we both ...

Half a year it feels like decades like time has been standing still in front of me just half a year during which life loved me, abandoned me and crashed around me I have been imprisoned by my own mind human mind is, in the end, very wicked I have been living in a world surrounded by flames captivated at the borders of insanity in a very twisted place Nowhere to go No one to turn to crying alone, unable to move forward to get away from this living nightmare I hanged myself.... only to wake up to the music of spring It seems, life took me back with open arms kissed me on the forehead set me free. Looking at my reflection I see a smile upon my face and a glow behind my eyes I am finally free.

For a long time. I though I had been lost. Alone in the darkness. Shouting to be rescued. Reaching out to people, for someone to take my hand and pull me to safety From so many I have tried to gain pieces of myself, to make me whole. Not anymore, I have stopped. As if something turned on the light I Suddenly stopped shouting, i stopped crying. I opened my eyes and I stopped blaming I thought I have always been afraid of the darkness. But tonight I rememered I have not I remember when I was younger I took long walks at night. Darkness around me and stars shining upon me. I wasn't afraid back then. Was I whole back then ? I'm sure I was not, but i had something that i seem to have lost along the years. I had my soul and heart. Today, while looking at the dark trees feeling the humid air all around me, I remembered. A part of me, that was shouting alone, came to me smiling like an angel. I am not afraid anymo...

In the mist of the night I'm standing still constant quietness surrounding me caressing my senses calmly I can feel it rising deep inside of me this feeling of being restless looking at the starry sky wishing I could melt into the darkness Where can I find my solitude ? I'm homeless my heart cries silently I close my eyes and listen The night whispers shooting words to me I can feel the coldness on my skin untamed wind  making music with the trees shadows dancing all around me I let out a deep sigh I'm restless Where should I go, what should I do ?

I have been careful  not to let anyone close Build solid walls around my heart Kept my mind focused not letting my feelings get the best of me So,  why on Earth did you enter my life ? Telling me how you want to get closer Have me around when you come home from work Cuddle me through the dark nights Your beautiful words were strong enough to cut down my wall and mess my head I hate that I love you Even we turned out to be just friends I still want you I still think of you I still wait to hear from you Those words you whispered to me Those looks you exchanged with me Those acts of love you gave me Take them back Erase these feelings give back the brigs you took so I can start rebuilding Carefully leave you behind  shouting words of affection which I won't hear anymore Turn back the time don't approach me leave me be Because, I hate that I want you I hate that I think of you I hate that I wait to hear from you But still ...

It must have been hard for you was it not ? You loved him genuinely  more than others when his lies came out you must have crashed down But you hid it so well from us Never did we suspect that you must have had your heart crushed to ashes Baby girl, only fourteen you hid it all so well You have already had to go through a hard life with a heavy burden on your shoulders still you are smiling like the sun It makes me wonder who is really taking care of who This facade of yours has been built so damn well Baby girl, I have a dire feeling even we would try our hardest to ease your pain we cannot spare you from heartache and sadness. It makes me feel so powerless But Baby girl always remember we got your back and we love you dearly. No matter what till the end of times and even after

What have you done sold my independence  with green cash Put a " Use as you like" stamp  on my forehead And send me off with words: " Bon Voyage, Mia Bella Bambina." Now I'm drifting Been here and there many hands have touched me dozens of caresses stroked my skin thousand kisses pressed against my lips Baby of mine You send me so far away Never wondered how I am Not once called my name again I'm a Jane Doe Gone, Forgotten, Dead I have not once given up humiliating names, slaps, words I have shut them all out of my mind And I have continued to wait While people come and go, I have waited This prison is closing nearer and nearer  sometimes it's harder to breathe please, come soon. Every day I wake up I'm used and tossed away by daybreak                Why haven't you searched me               Baby of mine You send me so far away Never wondered how I am Not on...

You know I talk to myself when I'm alone I pretend to be surrounded by people I love and admire and I have various discussions with them daily It fills me with joy to be able to talk my heart out laugh from the bottom of my heart and act silly in front of all of you I feel, to some extent I'm always wearing a mask.. My family, friends, co-workers None of them knows my wicked little heart So when I'm alone I can let my inner guard down have a laugh of myself with all these important people You may think it's bizarre But for me It's a gateway to Heaven: I have joked around with Will sung to Choi and cried my sea of tears to Jamie And all these people love me nevertheless They will never deceive me Now from my point of view That's pretty great. Eh ?

Ok, Dear readers, This is the first out of three poems I'm gonna be posting during the following days. I want to use this opportunity to Thank All you people who have taken the time out of your day to read my writings.  I appreciate this very much. Thank you...And a very big hug !   I can't make myself to shut down my computer because your brown eyes are glaring at me My desktop is filled with your pictures I thought I had made up my mind My life is Solo yet with your crooked smile you have entered my body Breathing becomes harder I'm grasping my heart and looking into your eyes. I cannot turn off my computer For I would lose your face looking at me so innocently  Why you had to enter my world? Before everything was much less complicated Now all I can think of is you

She walks the street holding her head up high Not lacking any pride. Many times she has been trampled down hateful words said out of share jealousy hurtful punches from all directions trying to kill her individuality, break her strong will and bury her six feet under. All those years of suffering Quietly fighting alone against so many. But look at her. Look how she glows today Never lost her way When they cut her hair she shaved them all off When they hit her she turned the other cheek When they shouted, yelled and badmouthed she tattooed those words to her arm. She walks the street holding her head up high knowing She never gave her wings away Never lost the battle She is God's greatest creation So strong, So happy So human. So us

Minä muistan kuinka metsätie kukki, Muistan miten aurinko lämmitti puiden lomitse, Muistan miltä kuoppainen soratie tuntui pyörän renkaiden alla. Mutta syvimmin minä muistan miten naurumme kaikui kaikkialla vielä pitkään sen jälkeen, kun olimme jo lähteneet

You ask me time and time again "Darling why you cry ?" and time after time I cannot answer I turn my back and walk to another room. My love how could I tell you From you I found my speechless destiny I'm afraid you will vanish These tears keep falling This is my soul, it has a lot of sadness. This is my heart, sewed back together after being broken But most of all This is my mind, recovering from illness I cry, I laugh and cry again you ask why Why am I this quiet all of a sudden Speak only few words Why am I laughing without reason My world This is depressive This is manic This is me Could you ever love me for all my faults ?